my 7th mid-term exam
Give a little rest for love story. It’s time for REALITY! (Although my love story seems so real for me, of course)
My blog sounds like I’m living in my perfect little world without anything from outside bothering me. Only me, and my boyfriend. No, it’s wrong. Life goes on. Indonesia has changed its governance and is having its 7th president ruling, with its cabinet changed as well, and West Sumatera is still suffering from the earthquake, and people are still waging war and fighting about peace, power, and money, while I’m having my mid-term exam. Yep! You got that right. MID-TERM EXAM ONGOING, PEOPLE!
Almost three and a half years ago, I imagined my 4th year in college would be me writing final essay a.k.a. thesis and graduating soon after I start writing it. But, so much for graduating in 7th semester. I’m not even close! I haven’t even done my KKN thingo that was supposed to be done last June. So here I am, studying for my 7th mid-term exam (technically, it’s my 6th for UGM), and those meany people put me in the front seat because I’m old! Because my student number is ‘older’ than others. So now i know how it feels not yet graduating and sitting in front seat in an exam room, along with people from younger batch, doing exam. Although I’m not alone, some fellow students from my batch are still having exam as well, but still. My seat number was ‘1′ for my exam this afternoon. Meaning that no one in the class with ‘earlier’ student number than me. That’s why I got ‘1′. How creepy was that? People, I’m old, I’m old, I’m old!!! *running around, trying to deny reality*
Well, despite all the cruel reality that keeps showing to the entire world that I’m old and supposed to be graduating, I did my exam well today. I have to admit that the studying-hard-for-an-A atmosphere started evaporating when I began this semester. I’m so lazy, having weak will, and I have skipped a lot of lectures. But seeing the fact today that I could do my exam well because I learned the materials two days before, I come to think of the possibility that it might not too late to do well on every exam. Although I started this semester with less spirit, I hope it can end great. 
from depok to jogja
It never crosses my mind that one day I will have a long distance relationship. Not even in my wildest dream. I’ve tried it once or twice, but none of them worked. Once I thought the basic principle of having a relationship is being together, meaning that you can actually meet the person whom you have relationship with. Relationship with such distant seemed so surreal for me. Nothing you can really hope. Like, when you need someone to help you with schoolwork, he can’t really be there to help you. And other stuff like that.
But somehow it changed. I started seeing long distance relationship in a different way.
I know both cities are still in the same island. I know that the technology of telecommunication is developing rapidly. But meeting him in person is still something very special since you can’t see him everyday. So the time when you’re having him with you feels so precious. I learned how the length of the distance taught me to be more patient, and trustful, and faithful. It’s more difficult since you know you can do anything without him knowing whatever you’re doing. Some might think that’s what makes long distance relationship very hard. You can’t stop being curious and jealous and any other negative feeling, you name it. I myself also feel it sometimes.
But for me, it shouldn’t always be that bad. It thrills me when something so far feels so close to your heart. When something in such distant can make a lot of impact to yourself. And it’s even better when something so far finally gets so close to you. I don’t know… it feels that good for me. Depok to Jogja doesn’t seem that far anymore now.
Sydney White
The movie was actually on 2007, so it’s like 2 years ago. But I just watched it recently in HBO, over and over and over again. I found it cute and interesting because it was actually a parody of a classic fairytale: Snow White. So a lot of things are alike but not the same. Snow White lives with dwarfs, Sydney White lives with dorks. Sydney doesn’t have a witch as her step mother like Snow White does, but her rival is a meany girl with a last name “Witchburn”. No prince charming for Sydney, but the cute guy is called by the name “Tyler Prince”. No poisoned apple, but a hacked Apple notebook instead, which puts Sydney in a difficult situation. And some other things that I found as fun facts as I watched the movie.
Well, it’s a very light movie. HBO called it a “chick flick”. But it’s just a kind of movie that you wanna watch together with your housemates in your pyjamas and scream “aaaaaw” everytime you see any cute scene. Plus, Matt Long, the guy who played as Tyler Prince, is soo freakin hot. haha…
This is one of my favorite scene in the movie, when Tyler told some of freshmen to sing for Sydney (and he himself sings as well), just for the sake of asking Sydney out for a date. How sweet is that???? Enjoy!
longing for the ‘time’
When everything that makes you happy seems so close to you.
When you just need to wait for a few seconds and it’s there right in front of you.
When you wake up in the morning and what you’ve been waiting is there as you open your door.
When you widened your arms and suddenly you already embraced it.
When it’s there.
Simply there next to you.
That’s the time what I’m longing for.
The time with you.
trouble is a friend
“Trouble is A Friend” is a song by Lenka. I like it because of its catchy lyrics. In fact, my housemates also like it as much as I do. We made a crazy video with the song, but I’m not gonna put it here. It’s way too embarassing to be published. I did it with two of my housemates, Ista and Laras. The song is kinda cute, I think, but has meaningful words. It’s true that human can never let themselves out of trouble, as trouble itself is a part of life. So might as well deal with it? I mean, instead of crying over it but doing nothing, it’s better to accept the fact and try to live it to the fullest, and live with trouble, because it’s a friend.
Well, I know that not all people agree with what I write. But that should be ok, I’m not looking for agreement. I just want to share the song with you. Not only that I feel the lyrics is inspirational, but also I like the performance in this clip, especially the guitar guy who’s tapping on the guitar instead of actually playing it. Enjoy!
it’s about everything
It’s a feeling when you can’t focus on something else but that thing, and that thing only. Although you know that there are so many things you need to prioritize. But you just don’t care. You got carried away by the feeling you have, just keep smiling and laughing, you sing random songs in the bathroom, hate yourself because you realized it’s a little bit too late, and you think you’ve already gone crazy. Crazy because of the feeling.
It sounds negative, yes I admit. But not anymore when you know how to put the energy you have to something else. Although you still don’t care about anything but that thing, you will go to class and will be able to say the right words when the teacher ask you. You got nerve to say things in the discussion, showed that you paid attention on the documentary movie they just played, although you still secretly text him while you watch it. You know your day is brightened, and you can’t wait for tomorrow because you believe there will be more beautiful things happen as you open your eyes and see it is already a brand new day. The distance is getting smaller. The holiday is approaching. Soon you see him in person. It won’t be long till the day come. And you just can’t help smiling if you think about it.
I don’t know. What is this?
I guess it’s something they called love. Yeah, it’s about love, the feeling I have.
Or maybe not. It’s not about love. It’s about everything. Nothing else matters.
