I want to be special. I want to feel like I am special. If you think I am, why don’t you treat me like it? Why don’t I feel like I am? Maybe I’m ungrateful. But I just miss those moments. Those good times. Now it’s all plain and boring. What happened? Have we lost the sparks? I sent a two-paraghraph email, pouring my heart out, about why I acted this way. But all I got as a reply is just three sentences. That’s it. Do you care? Do you still care? Or maybe things are as equally boring to you as they are to me? We talk but we barely know how we feel about each other. I know you. You don’t believe in words. You think “action is enough”. But when all you got to do as an action is a phonecall, don’t you think it also needs to involve a little bit of talking in it? Do you think once you call then problem solved? You think a phonecall is enough to show how you feel without really think about what things you’re gonna say? You hate protests, but you give me some. You call life’s unfair, but, hey, it has been a little bit unfair to me too, you know. Wait. You don’t? You seriously don’t know it has been unfair to me, too? Then, maybe you should really find it on your own. Because that’s what you always tell me, isn’t that? Everytime I got confused and have no clue about what I have to do, you always tell me to figure it out, on my own.
I even feel you kinda hate me. I don’t know why. Do you hate me? I think you do. You said it once, you hate me. Maybe you still do. It’s been a while since the last time I cried. I don’t want to cry anymore but sometimes I just can’t help it. I got to the point where I don’t know what to do anymore that what’s left for me to do is crying. Sometimes I can stop myself from crying, but it feels like I’m dying inside. I really can’t help it. I can’t. I’m scared. I don’t wanna talk about it to your face, I’m too scared.
Now maybe you call me Drama Queen. For being overreacting and overwhelming about everything. But I am a humanbeing. That’s what I do. That’s what we do.
And God help me. I want to feel special again. 
PERTAMAX!!!!!!!!
berat euy.
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But I am a humanbeing. That’s what I do. That’s what we do.
-Yes you are-
Doa lah dek…
Doa adalah senjata!
And God help me
-Help Him, then He will Help u
Dah ah, jangan ngegalau terus….
akhr tahun nih
hehehehe….
Thank you so much mas! sudah tidak galau lagi, Insya Allah. 
akhirnya dijawab juga komentar2nya…
tenane udh g galau lagi?
ehehehehehe… insya Allah
LDR is tough karin, i did twice and never worked. you’re so nice super lady, you will be special in your way
It is tough. So tough that sometimes I feel like quitting, but not yet.
Thanks mbak wiwien, I know I have to feel special cos I am, just like everyone else. 
But i think everyone’s special… .___________.
betewe, salam mampir…
yeah that’s true. Everyone is special.
thanks.
galau nih ceritanya^^ you are special! itu bukan karena orang lain tapi karena Tuhan menciptakan kita memang spesial, beda dari yang lain. Semoga “dia” bisa melihat dan memperlakukanmu dengan spesial seperti adanya kamu.
hehehe… iya mbak. My eyes are open now. thaaanks
I think I’m the Special One (Jose Mourinho)
Asyiikk… update jugo blognyo
update kegalauan -__-
Belom update lagi??
belom sop. sabar yaa
Sounds terrifying… Wish you pass through all of it…
In case writing these scream relieves your hurt and feeling, keep writing <– please consider this sentence as a support
I did pass it and I think everything is going well now. I realize people need to experience the hard time in order to be stronger and then be grateful for everything. Thanks for the support. It means a lot!
You are so special neng.. rasa galau, rasa rendah diri dll pasti pernah dialami setiap orang, tapi percayalah kita ini spesial banget karena Tuhan menciptakan kita hanya satu, tidak ada yang sama persis dengan kita, maka berbahagialah dan bangga dengan diri kita.. jangan kecewakan Tuhan yang telah menciptakanmu
lakukan yang terbaik dan bermanfaat aja hehe
semangat ya
thanks mbak. I know, hehe kadang2 sebagai manusia memang aku lupa bersyukur. Trimakasih sudah mengingatkan.
semoga selalu bisa lakukan yang terbaik, Insya Allah. 